i wrote this like 2 days back... i mean i finished it. hahaha

Look up high to oblivion,
with serious informations;
tell me how you feel?

Wonders through this difficult,
series of convictions;
i won't claim my will.

For me its hope to seek
for you to forgive my every sins
you were my last needs...

Was this our first brilliance
When we have conversations;
in the air of space yet whole

is it true this is the very end?
is it found, is it forgiven then,
this is our shortest story..

ehh babe,

i'm not updating here anymore ahh slow ahh here,

visit moi at Dzefro

My life is an over turn right now, been trying new stuffs, good stuffs. I feel much more free and less suffocating. The glares, them synic all of them now will be put behind.

Well i've been experiencing weird vibes around me and a couple of buddies, it almost felt fake. i feel as if i'm someone fake. but i won't make a change just to please others when neither of them means nothing but a single serving friend.

I realise i have lots of those, in my life. when they meet up with me they go like woah, What happened to you dude, and i'm like its all good, same ol' shit. I'm trying my best to be as calm as i can be. well sometimes its just about how you take things, especially when, what we are trying to get that we can't, we tend to lose it and things will get from bad to worst.

had a couple problems with Lan a couple of days ago, involving No Direction, and yan got pissed at how lan is putting his words to everyone of us. well to me theres no point of getting too aggro, well yan has all the right to be piss. but situation like this can just be let passed and so yan had his conversation with lan and bernard and i had my part of the conversation with lan, hoping just to let this pass us and will to change the whole entire feelings of one another. Sometimes its just super groovy hard to please every fucking one. But hell now everythings all good. Met up with the guys yesterday night, Yan, Awin, bernard, Ally and another person left early, and Me, Fad, Inn and Ewick stayed and walked aimlessly in town. Wash eye.. hahah cioow ah-lianster. hahah well as per norm, NO LUCK. better still... NO BALLS. hahaha but it was all good.

well i'm off to town to meet babe. dunno what the hell we are gonna do there, just melayankan jer la eh. heh..


Cheers peeps
Dzefro

I might be away for awhile and won't be updating anymore.

so if i dun get to see you all my buddies and readers, brothers and sisters i wish you best of luck in whatever you guys are doing. heh.

to the rest that know whats happened? please do say a prayer. hope for the best for all of us.

and all my wrong doing to all, all wrongs i've said, i'm really sorry.

jadik jgn marah2 k.

Ya'll take care now.

Cheers
Dzefro

200 miles away from home.
200 miles beneath this lake is where my heart belongs, but you don't care at all.
You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs.
You demand to be chased for your love.
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long.
But you don't care at all.
There's nothing I can do to draw you close to me.
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you.
I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow.
Please be home tonight.
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right.
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel every time you're here.
What would it take for me to be with you?
I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed.
Please be impressed.
I'd go so far to please you but I bet you wouldn't care at all.
Hopeless love, please leave me.
This broken heart is far to weak to run for you this long.
Why don't you care at all?
I'm dying for a place in your heart.
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you.
I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow.
Please be home tonight.
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right.
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel every time you're here.
Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight.
And now I regret the day we met.
And help me forget your name.

I've lured you, i tried loving.

It just dosen't seem to work right.

I was always with my friends. and you were always with yours,

I didn't stop you, so why take advantage of it?

and now you blame me?!?

what did i do? I was 5 meters away. 5 bloody meters, heh

at that time i felt like as if i am invincible.

like as if i do not exist. its like wow, isn't this something. eh...

but still you wanted this, you chose this.

and you left.



like what you said, Nightingale flew so far back that it lost its way to the ground.

Please don't blame me. I've let you go. what more do you want?

I've nothing left now babe. i must say i'm not happy being alone,

but it is way better to be alone than to be in heartache.

lets just grow out of it.

and both of us will be fine.

The way it is.



Cheers.

Good bye Nightingale.


Something i wanted to say for awhile.. i just can't keep it inside anymore.